Start Writing

After the first letter is clicked, what an adrenaline rush! Inspired (persuaded? bullied into?) by my friend Arra, I went to this site:

http://www.themostdangerouswritingapp.com/

Even before I typed in my first word, I was already thinking about the words and sentences that I want to write. It was so exciting, yet, unnerving at the same time. What should I write? Should I write that in? How would I say what I want to say? How does that subject and verb agreement goes? Will I be able to write continuously for three minutes?

The idea behind this site is that if you stop writing, everything you have written will be gone. You can’t cheat also! You can’t type and delete, type and delete, and type and delete while waiting for that next word to come to you. That’s why I was so nervous to write! But you know what is the secret to finishing this challenge? Just start writing. 

2nd story pt. 1

2nd story
We’re two ships sailing

Here’s one of my first “stories”. I was able to write this because this story had been bothering for a long time now. However, I always made excuses not to write it down. Excuses such as “I don’t have time yet”, “I’m not in the mood”, “I don’t have the right paper and pen”, or “I’m too lazy to write it down”. But it begs to be written down because it’s always on my mind. If you read it, you’ll see grammatical errors and inconsistent voices. You’ll also notice how disconnected some sentences would be. You’ll see how I jumped from an idea to another. How I shift voices, tenses, and ideas. But I think, that’s part of the magic of this site.

Soon, I let go and just forget about the rules. I just start writing and kept on writing. Without any fear of the “rules”. With just the words I want to write. With just the sentiments I want to be honest with. I started with 3 minutes and now I find myself enjoying and not breaking any sweat with 10 minutes! Like, whoah. Haha!

It’s always a liberating experience to write. Not just with this site but, in general. Why? This site made me realize that this statement is true, “We write what the heart is full of…” I have written other things in this site that I’m not that comfortable to share with a whole lot. Things that, sometimes, I don’t even what to think about. Like dreams that are too close yet still too far. Or of fears that lurks around the corners of my mind. And of people. Stories that I would not share but have written. I’m still not that brave, dear reader. So, for now, I’m just sharing written fictions. Haha!

3rd story
Summer seasons are the worst

 

So there. Why don’t you challenge yourself with this? Start writing! 

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Random Reminders for the Rest of 2018

2018 have indeed started and I’m okay with it so far! There’s a lot going on and, for sure, more have yet to come. I can feel it. This is the year where I’ll achieve things, may it be the way I thought it is or maybe in another totally different direction. Whatever it is, I am excited for it to happen.

However, with the excitement also comes fear. Fear of failing. Fear of being stuck. Fear of the unknown. Fear of not being able to do your best. And while feeling all those fears and doubts, I have realized something. Fear paralyzes you. The more you entertain fearful thoughts, the more you get less things done. Fear holds you back from your dreams. It’s a two-step backwards from achieving your goals. Why can’t you have a fearless 2018?  Why not go for the gold? Why not try to reach the stars? Why not?

So here are some reminders for myself for the rest of 2018. Some reminders that could, hopefully, make me choose to always do my best.

amanda+joaquim

Ever heard this saying before? Simply put, it means even some Dumb Jane can be useful. Although, I have a different approach with it. What it means to me is that you should be less critical of yourself. If a broken clock is right twice a day then, probably, you did something right on this day. Maybe, with the hundred things you’ve done today, you’ve made one thing right. So, no matter how shitty you might feel maybe it is not bad after all. Celebrate that one thing you made right and improve on the rest. Don’t be too hard on yourself. It’s okay to be broken. It’s okay to be dumb at times. It’s okay not to be okay. But what’s not okay is staying that way. A broken clock gets fixed eventually. So should you.

All are called to be great, but only a few responds.

Do we choose where we would be? Do we choose what we would be? Or is everything already written in the stars? It’s your destiny to be there. It’s your destiny to be this rather than to be that. Sometimes I feel that I have such too big of a dream. That maybe it’s time to be “realistic”. You know? Putting you feet on the ground. Take root. Stay. Because if destiny has no hand at all of this, then why are there so many “average” people? I thought it was because it is not their destiny to be great. I was wrong. I have come to realize that all are called to be great, but only a few responds. All are destined to be great. However, the path to your destiny is your choice. It’s your choice not to achieve your dreams, not to fight for it, not to work hard for it. It’s your choice to stop pursuing your dreams, getting comfortable, staying contented. It’s your choice.

Cheers for Beer Day!

This is a bible verse, but before we get religious I think we can still apply it to our daily lives. Well, in the bible this talks about how you cannot love God and money at the same time and at the same level. Why? Because stuff. Anyway…I think, this also say something about our priorities. We live in an age where people are proud multi-taskers, but is it really something to be proud of? On a certain level, yes. Not all the time, though. Recently, I find myself torn between two “masters”. Two things that I should be doing, two things that are completely different from one another. The result? I’m not excelling in any one of them. I’m not doing my best in any. I’m not able to give my 100% to any.

You see, it’s not just about doing things. It’s not just about the work load. It’s also about the way you feel. How dedicated would you be to any of the two? Which is more important? Other times it would be this one, then it would be the other one. Can that really work? What would you prioritized more of the two? Where would you focus more?

What if it is two competing dreams? Because of trying to balance the two, you’ll end up losing both. You could also end up losing one. Then realizing that it was your ultimate dream and you just blew your chances. The take away here? Hindi pwedeng hati yung puso mo. You need to decide.

So, there you go dear readers! Hope some of my ramblings here help! Let’s all do our best this 2018, okay?

500 Words A Day

An Ad on Twitter

If I follow this ad, what will I write about?

Should I write about myself and bore you to death? Should I write about others and look like a gossip? Plus, their stories are not mine to tell. Do you want me to write about my travels? But I may sound so absorbed. Can I write about the books I’ve read? But you might be disinterested. What if I write about the boys I’ve liked? Nah, too much “what ifs”. Then should I write about the girls I hated before? Eh, I’m too blunt not to hurt anyone, eventually. Should I write about fashion? But mine’s too eclectic to write a disciplined prose. How about food? Bad idea, I’m starving this moment. Maybe I should refocus my writing, move away from trivialities. Should I write about the Realpolitik with regard to our claims in the South China Sea? Or write about how the Rohingya is not just a political question but it also question our humanity? How about if I write about what Catalonia’s experience means for the Philippines’ future? What if I start my literature about migration and aging population once again? Are these too much for you? Yep, they are even too much for me.

What if I write about my past? Musings of yesterday and its lessons? But it sounds too cliche. How many have you heard about their past? Mine’s not too melodramatic to begin with. Just enough stumbles and bruises to get you clickbait. Is that even a word? I also fear that I may sound righteous, like a hypocritical pastor pressuring its congregation that if I was able to do it then so can they. What if I write about the present? Ugh, too banal. I don’t fly to Hong Kong just to each lunch. I don’t attend parties and pass out at some random people’s place. I don’t have cute-meet stories at bookstores or a coffee shops. We don’t even have a legit bookstore here. Told you, presently, my life is too banal. But I’m fine with it. What if I write about the future? About how unsure I am of the future. About my dreams and plans. However, I’m scared that I might jinx it.

Maybe I should write a writing challenge. How about making THIS a writing challenge? I think, one or two will accept and write. I’m still a bit short of 500. But, hey, good try. And here, dear reader, my 500 words a day ends.